Saturday, June 29, 2013

The Real Me

I've realized lately that I don't love the person God made me to be.
I feel insecure about who I am, and that makes me feel awkward when I talk about myself with others. I try to please others too much, and that causes me to be someone I'm not. I mask my feelings and live behind a wall of "I'm great, life is great, and I'll do anything to make you happy." I don't accept myself fully for who I was created to be. I'm not confident at all either. I constantly compare myself to others and question every decision I make. I don't believe I have the ability to do things that others say that I can do, and I doubt the truth of others' encouragement and compliments.

///All of this needs to change!///

The real me is a daughter of God, loved unconditionally by Him, and beautifully fashioned by His hand. The real me is weird (not in a bad way) and goofy at times. The real me has struggles, trials, questions, and things needing growth. The real me loves to talk, but doesn't think that anyone else truly wants to listen. The real me is trying every day to fall more in love with Jesus and share what He is doing in my life. The real me wants to break free.

I want to be the real me.

Now that I got that out of the way, here are some more sky pictures.


Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Random Fact Wednesday (7)

This is more like a rant than a random fact, but it'll work. One of the few things that really annoy me is when people don't respond to messages/invitations. Like, I'll send out a message or invite for an event, and almost half of the people I send it to don't reply at all. I don't get it. Why can't people take a minute to reply? They just leave me hanging, not knowing if they've actually read what I sent. Even sometimes I ask a question twice, and still don't get a reply. It's a mystery to me, and it annoys me greatly.

If this has ever happened to you, or you know how to fix this problem, leave a comment. Thanks!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

A day at the beach

I finally did something on my summer bucket list - went on a spontaneous day-cation at the beach. Hannah came with me, and we had fun in the perfect-temperature ocean and sand. :) I didn't take many pictures of the actual beach, but here are the ones I did take:

We had quite an adventure getting there - lots of rain and u-turns. Then at the beach we found a shark tooth, watched as swimmers kept ignoring the lifeguard (his whistle got annoying), and saw a police officer arrest someone for giving alcohol to a minor. On the way home, we saw a gorgeous sunset. I took pictures of it while I was driving. (I know, not smart, but it was too pretty to pass up)

So, that's one thing checked off my summer bucket list. I'd still like go find an open field and look for shapes in the clouds, start doing yoga, fix some of my clothes that are too big, and go camping. We'll see how many I can get done before August.

And since it's Wednesday, here's a random fact about me. I don't entirely trust electronics, so I write almost everything down and keep receipts for everything. I even look up directions and write them down before I go somewhere, just in case my GPS doesn't work. Call me weird, but I prefer having a piece of paper instead of looking at a computer-type screen.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Test Results and Fun Times

Well, I got my test results back, and everything is normal. But I found out I have acid reflux. So, I've changed my diet a little bit and started drinking baking soda in water. That has helped a lot. Also, I believe that my worrying and being stressed about stuff, made my 'problem' worse than it actually was. I thought that something was really wrong with me, and I kept trying to figure out what it was and was so worried about being sick. That alone most likely caused me to get so many upset stomachs. Add to that: stress from various aspects of life and having acid reflux, and you can imagine how sick I've been lately.
But, by God's grace I have started being less anxious about my health and life in general. I still have to grow a /lot/ in trusting God, but I've come farther than I ever have. A passage in Scripture that has been a big help is Isaiah 26:3-4 "You keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in You. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal."
I've read this every day for the past couple weeks, and God has used it to help me keep my thoughts from going down the 'worry lane'. God is so good, and kind, and has blessed me richly!

------- Now on to the less serious stuff. -------

Sunday evening was so fun! I got to hang out with some of my best friends and watch a Shakespeare play outside. We got rained on, but I like the rain so it was nice. :) Here's my favorite picture from the evening:

Last week I went to Reedy Creek Park by myself. It was relaxing to just sit and listen to the sounds of nature, and not think about what I had to do later (or anything really). I like this perk of being an introvert. :)
I took some photos too.

Can you find the little fish? (just to the right of center)

Saturday, June 1, 2013

goodbye May, hello June

Well, May is over. It has seemed like one of the longest months ever. Hard to believe that the last M28 event was only 4 weeks ago today - seems like a lot longer.
Why has May seemed to go on forever? Let's see, 1) no M28 meetings every Thursday, which means I'm not shopping for snacks for those meetings and I miss seeing everyone in M28. 2) I've been battling stomach issues quite a lot, still waiting to hear back about my test results. 3) Work has been slower, so not as much to do.
Yep, that about sums it up.

In June I'm looking forward to: Shakespeare in the Park with friends (that's actually tomorrow!), hearing back from my doctor so I can start my journey back to health, possibly going on a spontaneous day trip to the beach, and maybe visiting a friend in Fayettville. Should be a good month!