God moves in a mysterious way

God is so awesome, I want to tell the whole world all that He has done for me! But it would take an entire day to type up everything, and I doubt that anyone would actually read a blog post that was 100 pages long. (ok, maybe not /that/ long, but you get the idea) So I'm going to write about a small part of how my Father has blessed me.

Last week was one of the hardest weeks ever, due to various circumstances and my very sinful reaction to them. I can't recall ever being under satanic attack before, but I'm pretty sure that Satan was after me last week. (Now you're probably thinking, 'how can this be a blessing from God?' Just hold on, I'll get to that.) I was literally depressed, consumed by thoughts of my circumstances and how I deserved better and how I would be sad forever if things didn't change to my liking. I was not smiling at all, which, if you know me, is not normal. To be completely honest, I didn't see the point of living anymore.

Side note: This is no one's fault but my own. No one is to blame but myself (and Satan) for how I reacted to the circumstances that God perfectly planned for me last week.

Alrighty, on to the good stuff!

It's hard to say exactly what happened. But basically, God gently but firmly shook me awake and said, "Hello! You're wallowing in self-pity, thinking only about yourself and what you want. You imagine that what you desire is the only possible scenario that I could have planned for you. Stop this foolish, selfish, prideful thinking! I know what's best for you, and I have something so much better for you than what you imagine you should have. Trust me, I will never take away anything from you without giving you back something far better. I have an amazing future planned for you, my dear one!"

God dramatically changed my outlook on my situation. He changed my focus from my present circumstances to the bigger picture of what He may be calling me to. He greatly restored my joy, to the point where now I just want to smile at everyone I see. :) He reminded me of all the blessings He has given me, and of how much He loves me. He helped me to accept that things are the way they are, and nothing I do will change that, and then move on and find out what He wants me to do next. He is helping me heal and let go.

My Father is so kind, good, faithful, loving, patient, gentle, and I could keep going on and on. I'm abundantly grateful that I have such an awesome Savior and friend, who will never ever leave me!